Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all! I hope you all got the rest you needed and had time to spend with loved ones and your hobbies. I have been working on my personal non-anonymous website which is now finished. I coded up a static site generator in python using markdown files for blog posts, markdown2 for conversion to html, jinja for templating. It is neat! Took more time than I expected, but I think that is to be expected.
In the meantime, I have been thinking about a lot of concepts Cal Newport has discussed, including deep procrastination; zen valedictorian and philosophically, the intrinsic value of enjoyment (or of anything really). I have also read about internal vs instrumental motivation and I will link a nice reader on that now: https://www.nytimes.com/2014/07/06/opinion/sunday/the-secret-of-effective-motivation.html?_r=0
Deep procrastination describes my issues to a tee. It is rather scary, and also simultaneously nice to know that people are going through the same thing as me. I will have a proper think and some longer posts are to follow.